Late Lunch

Okay so it is 4:10 pm and I am now about to eat my lunch. I have 1020 calories left for the day, lets see how I did.

Lunch: 10 Baby Carrots- 40 Calories
1 cup of salad- 7.5 Calories
2 slices of Stacker pickles- 5 Calories
2 medium flour tortillas- 260 Calories
10 Shrimp- 80 Calories
1 tbsp of Butter- 60 Calories
Turkey lunch Meat- 45 Calories
Total: 497.5 Calories
Total Left: 522 Calories

My lunch today is Delish. 2 Snack wraps, One was a turkey Salad snack wrap and the other was a shrimp salad snack wrap. The shrimp was sauteed in 1 tbsp of butter with S&P, it was then set aside while the tortillas browned in the same pan. I then divided the 1 cup of salad between the two tortillas. I added shrimp to one, and turkey to the other, topped it of with about 1 tbsp of lemon juice divided btwn the two. Then a side of baby carrots and two slices of a pickle.

I did not count the lemon juice in as any calories. 1 cup of lemon juice is 61 calories, I only used one tbsp of lemon juice from a fresh lemon. Since there is 16 tablespoons to one cup, its approximately 0.3 calories per one tbsp of lemon juice.

If you have any low calorie recipes you'd like to share, I would love it!

Today

Today represents the beginning of hopefully a healthier me! Deliliah, my partner and fiance has made the decision to join the Air-force. Deliliah is skinny, she denies it all day, but she is. She has decided to get in shape for the Air-force. I have decided to join her.

Today we start out 1700 calorie intake diet. Just thinking about this puts me in a great mood. I so far have had:

Breakfast: 1 cup of wholegrain Granola-400 Calories
1 cup of whole milk-160 calories
1 large banana-120 calories
Total: 680 calories
left: 1020 calories left for day

Today I also started exercising. After searching on demand exercise TV, I found Yoga for beginners. I decided to give it a go. Man it was amazing. I could only do the first 15 minutes because the rest of it was impossible for me to do due to my weight. My fat just gets in the way. The first 15 minutes were amazing though. I felt the burn! Before I started I just did some basic stretches, stretching out my arms, legs, thighs, and abdomen. Then I began the yoga. Now that I am finished I feel so loose and calm. The breathing techniques they use I found really help round out the activity. It is calming and stress relieving.

I really cannot wait to get into shape. Yoga is something I would like to continue to excel at, and carry through my weight loss and beyond.

I told myself I would drink to cups of ice cold water before I go for that glass of diet coke. (even though diet coke has zero calories!) I know it is still not very healthy.

So here is to me, my baby, and the rest of our healthy life.

Your support, comments, and love is always greatly appreciated! Please join me in this quest to become healthier, fit and confident!

Fatigue

I really need to get myself in to see the doctor. I have been suffering with so much fatigue it is ridiculous. I am always tired. I sleep until about 10am, wake up, then go back asleep right away. I have to force myself to roll out of bed.

This may have a lot to do with my thyroid being imbalanced. If I get it under the control of medication, it should help me become less fatigue, as well as lose some weight. So what am I waiting for?!

Fatigue

I really need to get myself in to see the doctor. I have been suffering with so much fatigue it is ridiculous. I am always tired. I sleep until about 10am, wake up, then go back asleep right away. I have to force myself to roll out of bed.

This may have a lot to do with my thyroid being imbalanced. If I get it under the control of medication, it should help me become less fatigue, as well as lose some weight. So what am I waiting for?!

Health

I know I am losing weight, but how much? I still have not weighed myself. How do I know I am losing weight if I have not weighed myself, you may ask... I have started getting my rag (menstrual cycle) again.

I started my period in the 4th grade! My flow has always been heavy, nasty and the cramps unbearable. I remember being in school and getting these cramps that were completely debilitating. I would drag myself to the nurses office where they would place a heating pad on my stomach and a t-leaf on my forehead. About 2 years ago, when I hit 300 lbs I stopped having my period.

My gynecologist at the time Dr. Finkle-Weaver told me that it is because of my weight and that I may stop ovulating completely. Of course I was a bit overwhelmed. She prescribed me Estrogen. Estrogen would help me continue bleeding, but would not help me ovulate. She explained to me that even though I am not menstruating that I would still cycle. The Estrogen would help sluff off the build up of blood so not to lead to getting any sort of ovarian cancer. She also explained that there would be severe cramping and pain. I never took the damn Estrogen. I was too afraid of having artificial bleeding. It just freaked me out.

I noticed that the skin behind my neck was turning a brown, ashy color. I thought it was pretty gross. I also have it between my legs in my inner thigh. It makes me very self conscious.
Dr. Finkle-Weaver told me it was Acanthosis Nigricans. It has to do with being borderline diabetic.

Around this same time I was diagnosed with Hypothyroidism which causes weight gain. I was prescribed Synthroid to help regulate my thyroid hormones. I took the first prescription, but soon after did not have health insurance to continue to get my medication. This is a lot of stuff going wrong! My immune system totally shut down and I developed a severe case of Pneumonia AND the Flu. At the same time! I was on so many different antibiotics, two that I remember were Tamiflu (for the flu) and Azithromycin (for the Pneumonia).

I was slowly falling into a deep depression. My relationship at the time was ending, and I couldn't even take care of myself. I knew this was my lowest of lows. 2 years later, and I am just now trying to do something about it.

I am obese. I cannot reproduce. I am depressed. I am borderline diabetic. I have hypothyroidism. Who knows what else is going on. Man.

So you know that at that first sign of light red color on the toilet paper as I struggle to wipe myself I was ecstatic! Its been like this for about a month now. No heavy bleeding, just some discharge, and light color on the toilet paper. Still, I will take that!

It is time to get THIS body healthy!

Health (posted Tuesday, March 9, 2010)

I know I am losing weight, but how much? I still have not weighed myself. How do I know I am losing weight if I have not weighed myself, you may ask... I have started getting my rag (menstrual cycle) again.

I started my period in the 4th grade! My flow has always been heavy, nasty and the cramps unbearable. I remember being in school and getting these cramps that were completely debilitating. I would drag myself to the nurses office where they would place a heating pad on my stomach and a t-leaf on my forehead. About 2 years ago, when I hit 300 lbs I stopped having my period.

My gynecologist at the time Dr. Finkle-Weaver told me that it is because of my weight and that I may stop ovulating completely. Of course I was a bit overwhelmed. She prescribed me Estrogen. Estrogen would help me continue bleeding, but would not help me ovulate. She explained to me that even though I am not menstruating that I would still cycle. The Estrogen would help sluff off the build up of blood so not to lead to getting any sort of ovarian cancer. She also explained that there would be severe cramping and pain. I never took the damn Estrogen. I was too afraid of having artificial bleeding. It just freaked me out.

I noticed that the skin behind my neck was turning a brown, ashy color. I thought it was pretty gross. I also have it between my legs in my inner thigh. It makes me very self conscious.
Dr. Finkle-Weaver told me it was Acanthosis Nigricans. It has to do with being borderline diabetic.

Around this same time I was diagnosed with Hypothyroidism which causes weight gain. I was prescribed Synthroid to help regulate my thyroid hormones. I took the first prescription, but soon after did not have health insurance to continue to get my medication. This is a lot of stuff going wrong! My immune system totally shut down and I developed a severe case of Pneumonia AND the Flu. At the same time! I was on so many different antibiotics, two that I remember were Tamiflu (for the flu) and Azithromycin (for the Pneumonia).

I was slowly falling into a deep depression. My relationship at the time was ending, and I couldn't even take care of myself. I knew this was my lowest of lows. 2 years later, and I am just now trying to do something about it.

I am obese. I cannot reproduce. I am depressed. I am borderline diabetic. I have hypothyroidism. Who knows what else is going on. Man.

So you know that at that first sign of light red color on the toilet paper as I struggle to wipe myself I was ecstatic! Its been like this for about a month now. No heavy bleeding, just some discharge, and light color on the toilet paper. Still, I will take that!

It is time to get THIS body healthy!

Posted by OrchidsofDove at 3:44 PM

A bit about me.

Hey Girls (and guys)! My name is Crisanna aka Orchid. The Phat girl! I am 24 years old and have been morbidly obese for several years. I am 5'1". I have not weighed myself in three years. Three years ago I weighed 310lbs. I may very well be over that now.

I am here to share my story. this blog is to help me become 100% honest with myself and with you. Things are going to get very personal very quick. We are going to be discussing difficulties found in activities of daily living, sex, illnesses, diseases and so much more.

These are things that even I am embarrassed to discuss, but I need to. My wight has been out of control and I know I am not the only one out there.

Lets keep it REAL ladies!