Psychoanalysis & Pop Psychology

I got to thinking about fathers, or the lack there of. Some say a daughters relationship with her father is a model for all of her sub-sequential relationships with men. Is that just pop psychology, or is there some truth to it? And if you were given a less than perfect model does it mean a life of less than perfect relationships? I couldn't help but wonder... how much does a father figure, figure?

Does this theory apply to homosexual relationships? Sigmund Freud's basic theory of human sexuality was that all human beings were innately bisexual, and that they become heterosexual or homosexual as a result of their experiences with parents and others (Freud, 1905). In a now-famous letter to an American mother in 1935, Freud wrote:

"Homosexuality is assuredly no advantage, but it is nothing to be ashamed of, no vice, no degradation, it cannot be classified as an illness; we consider it to be a variation of the sexual function produced by a certain arrest of sexual development. Many highly respectable individuals of ancient and modern times have been homosexuals, several of the greatest men among them (Plato, Michelangelo, Leonardo da Vinci, etc.). It is a great injustice to persecute homosexuality as a crime, and cruelty too....(reprinted in Jones, 1957, pp. 208-209, from the American Journal of Psychiatry, 1951, 107, 786).

Does this mean, if I did not form a (good) relationship with either of my parents (at birth or early child hood) I am definitely going to be screwed when it comes to forming relationships with a perspective partner?

Just something to think about...

Relationships are about compromise. But where do you draw the line between compromising, and compromising yourself? Is it possible to be so much in love that you don't exist anymore, but only your 'compromised self'?

On that note, love... love is a tricky think. It is dangerous, and sneaky. Which brings us to another subject... Fate. Do the stars and the moon control fate? Is there really that one person out there for each of us, and if so, with one wrong turn or mistake can we loose or miss out on that person and be alone forever?

Health (posted Tuesday, March 9, 2010)

I know I am losing weight, but how much? I still have not weighed myself. How do I know I am losing weight if I have not weighed myself, you may ask... I have started getting my rag (menstrual cycle) again.

I started my period in the 4th grade! My flow has always been heavy, nasty and the cramps unbearable. I remember being in school and getting these cramps that were completely debilitating. I would drag myself to the nurses office where they would place a heating pad on my stomach and a t-leaf on my forehead. About 2 years ago, when I hit 300 lbs I stopped having my period.

My gynecologist at the time Dr. Finkle-Weaver told me that it is because of my weight and that I may stop ovulating completely. Of course I was a bit overwhelmed. She prescribed me Estrogen. Estrogen would help me continue bleeding, but would not help me ovulate. She explained to me that even though I am not menstruating that I would still cycle. The Estrogen would help sluff off the build up of blood so not to lead to getting any sort of ovarian cancer. She also explained that there would be severe cramping and pain. I never took the damn Estrogen. I was too afraid of having artificial bleeding. It just freaked me out.

I noticed that the skin behind my neck was turning a brown, ashy color. I thought it was pretty gross. I also have it between my legs in my inner thigh. It makes me very self conscious.
Dr. Finkle-Weaver told me it was Acanthosis Nigricans. It has to do with being borderline diabetic.

Around this same time I was diagnosed with Hypothyroidism which causes weight gain. I was prescribed Synthroid to help regulate my thyroid hormones. I took the first prescription, but soon after did not have health insurance to continue to get my medication. This is a lot of stuff going wrong! My immune system totally shut down and I developed a severe case of Pneumonia AND the Flu. At the same time! I was on so many different antibiotics, two that I remember were Tamiflu (for the flu) and Azithromycin (for the Pneumonia).

I was slowly falling into a deep depression. My relationship at the time was ending, and I couldn't even take care of myself. I knew this was my lowest of lows. 2 years later, and I am just now trying to do something about it.

I am obese. I cannot reproduce. I am depressed. I am borderline diabetic. I have hypothyroidism. Who knows what else is going on. Man.

So you know that at that first sign of light red color on the toilet paper as I struggle to wipe myself I was ecstatic! Its been like this for about a month now. No heavy bleeding, just some discharge, and light color on the toilet paper. Still, I will take that!

It is time to get THIS body healthy!

Posted by OrchidsofDove at 3:44 PM